Clever Trick.

It's been 6 months.
half a year.
let it go.
LEAVE ME ALONE.

you had your fun. it wasn't fun for me.
i cried every night for months.
there wasn't a day i didn't think about it.
i told myself i wasn't crying because of you but because of what happened.
i was only lying to myself.
i couldn't get it out of my head.
what you did.
everything you said.
&i actually believed you.
i was so foolish and naive.
i thought i was over it.
i thought i was over you.
but i still wish you were dead.
i wish i never met you.
i wish i was who i was before you.
i never thought the mere sight of you would make me crumble.
i was always so sure of myself.
i was sure of everything.
i regret everything.