skippa dee dee!
I. playing catch up again, i see. i hate recaps. &numbering them just shows how negligent i've been. to myself that is. not that i don't appreciate people who are interested. i know i've been in my shell lately. i do feel kinda detached -without all the angst &gloom of course. so i guess it's nice to know you guys [who are interested] can still know what's going on with me since i'm "too busy" for a sit-down. no.. i'm just not used to working and having a purpose. harrharr. just kidding i'm still carefree. no but really, i say negligent to myself because i need this outlet. i have a bajillion thoughts running through my adolescent mind for every millisecond that goes by.. my mind is racing. intensely. thoughts you may find whimsical. insignificant. trivial.. a little kooky. alas, they rule my mind &without this new age pen &paper.. i'm quite sure it would break. i'm utterly lucky to have this account. so, god bless you blogspot. you are the ultimate form of catharsis. [50 points for the posito word. my core popples know what's up..]
II. the gym has been really kickin my ass but it feels good. the sauna is heaven. i sweat all the gross out. then i go have my ass kicked for a while. doing lunges. squats. riding the bike. that stair thing. the thing that swings your legs. whatever, they're called.. they hurt. so i'm guessing it works. besides.. my legs do look longer &more toned so it's all good so far. then after all the beating.. i go back in the sauna &sweat the rest of the gross out. feels good baby.
III. i have work tomorrow [10-3] come visit me. i'm determined to break even. i like where i work. it's still chill. i still enjoy it. i think i'm a pretty positive person. a friend today told me that i'm in a light place. through struggles, i'll be able to face it with a positive energy. i like that. hearing that in itself puts me in a light place. like a little light recharger.. or something. Richard is amazing. his thoughts are so surreal. they paint a picture with the likes of man ray &marcel duchamp's work. our conversations ring with existentialism and evoke feelings i got when reading Nietzsche.. not that i'm comparing the two on a mental level.. it's more so on the effect they leave. few people can fully captivate my attention but the things he thinks &how his mind works leave my mouth agape. &all the while Ayal is strumming away on his guitar and serenading Cory &i. lol.
IV. got my fill of starbucks :3 shutupiknowi'mafatass. yes my dream guy was there.. like he is EVERY single night ??? weird. i don't know though, i'm just not the kind of girl who puts herself out there like that. i guess i should get over myself &just start up the damn conversation for once since i want it so badly. GEEZ. he's strange too though. so.. there. but he was a lot..... warmer? tonight. i don't think he charged me for my order either. i'm not too sure.. but i really hope not because then my gratitude fell short &if that's the case then i'd feel completely awful. he smiled when Cory &&i were at the counter. i'm not sure if i did.. grr, i'm completely shell shocked by him, which is hysterical &all together absurd because i have no idea who the hell this man is. hmmmmm. i have an affinity for mystery. always have. that's why i find strangers so exciting. i'm not making excuses mind you, but curiosity has always been prevalent when it came to my analytical mind. . &the more difficult it is to figure someone out.. the more intriguing i find them. anyway. andy warhol once said, "Fantasy love is much better than reality love. Never doing it is very exciting. The most exciting attractions are between two opposites that never meet." it's actually one of my favorites. &my young and foolish heart completely fell head over heels in love with the notion.
V. alright, all this talk of unrequited love is highly evocative of craziness &the sort... i can already feel my eyes getting all googly haha. &the low moon is prompting me to sleep. [sigh] i feel a lot better. &just because i'm feeling sentimental &missing mr. posito.. posting this was extremely cathartic, harrharr. just had to do it once more before i ended this release of pent up emotion.
buona notte, mio amores ♡ tell me your dreams in the morning..
II. the gym has been really kickin my ass but it feels good. the sauna is heaven. i sweat all the gross out. then i go have my ass kicked for a while. doing lunges. squats. riding the bike. that stair thing. the thing that swings your legs. whatever, they're called.. they hurt. so i'm guessing it works. besides.. my legs do look longer &more toned so it's all good so far. then after all the beating.. i go back in the sauna &sweat the rest of the gross out. feels good baby.
III. i have work tomorrow [10-3] come visit me. i'm determined to break even. i like where i work. it's still chill. i still enjoy it. i think i'm a pretty positive person. a friend today told me that i'm in a light place. through struggles, i'll be able to face it with a positive energy. i like that. hearing that in itself puts me in a light place. like a little light recharger.. or something. Richard is amazing. his thoughts are so surreal. they paint a picture with the likes of man ray &marcel duchamp's work. our conversations ring with existentialism and evoke feelings i got when reading Nietzsche.. not that i'm comparing the two on a mental level.. it's more so on the effect they leave. few people can fully captivate my attention but the things he thinks &how his mind works leave my mouth agape. &all the while Ayal is strumming away on his guitar and serenading Cory &i. lol.
IV. got my fill of starbucks :3 shutupiknowi'mafatass. yes my dream guy was there.. like he is EVERY single night ??? weird. i don't know though, i'm just not the kind of girl who puts herself out there like that. i guess i should get over myself &just start up the damn conversation for once since i want it so badly. GEEZ. he's strange too though. so.. there. but he was a lot..... warmer? tonight. i don't think he charged me for my order either. i'm not too sure.. but i really hope not because then my gratitude fell short &if that's the case then i'd feel completely awful. he smiled when Cory &&i were at the counter. i'm not sure if i did.. grr, i'm completely shell shocked by him, which is hysterical &all together absurd because i have no idea who the hell this man is. hmmmmm. i have an affinity for mystery. always have. that's why i find strangers so exciting. i'm not making excuses mind you, but curiosity has always been prevalent when it came to my analytical mind. . &the more difficult it is to figure someone out.. the more intriguing i find them. anyway. andy warhol once said, "Fantasy love is much better than reality love. Never doing it is very exciting. The most exciting attractions are between two opposites that never meet." it's actually one of my favorites. &my young and foolish heart completely fell head over heels in love with the notion.
V. alright, all this talk of unrequited love is highly evocative of craziness &the sort... i can already feel my eyes getting all googly haha. &the low moon is prompting me to sleep. [sigh] i feel a lot better. &just because i'm feeling sentimental &missing mr. posito.. posting this was extremely cathartic, harrharr. just had to do it once more before i ended this release of pent up emotion.
buona notte, mio amores ♡ tell me your dreams in the morning..
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